I completely understand, dude. My wife recently had something of a cancer scare, and I'm still not right from it. Fucking terrifying. Sending positive vibes your way. As for the long distance thing, my wife had a family emergency that required her to fly out to Texas (from Wisconsin) for a few months. This was when we had just gotten married a few months prior. It's not a different country, but I get the apprehension. Again, sending good vibes.