I have been here a while on and off. I am happy because I am getting married to the love of my life, I have a cat, got a huge promotion earlier in the year (Lots of NGD's to make up for), and my family life is good. I don't do as much music as I want but that is okay. I put my life on hold for 4 years trying to push a band and live a dream making money in music. It did not work. I pushed off everything so I could focus. Personal relationships, career, love, and other things. I even pushed off sex. I was depressed and I hated my life. I wasn't happy. It was not until I put my art on the backburner and refocused my life that I was able to be happy. I lost a lot of money on buying and selling guitars as well. I had an addiction to new gear because getting it made me happy but it always faded. I know it sounds like I gave up on my dream but I didn't, just reassessed it and decided to work smarter, not harder. That is why I am happy right now.