thebeesknees22
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Literally could not work out today thanks to so many people being in the gym, and me needing to get to work. What the heck! Early on a saturday morning of all days.
bah!
bah!
I'm debating on building a coffee table and a bookshelf, or grabbing them off of CL. I could build them relatively easily, but this could easily turn into a huge fucking hassle. hmmmm
I'm debating on building a coffee table and a bookshelf, or grabbing them off of CL. I could build them relatively easily, but this could easily turn into a huge fucking hassle. hmmmm
CL is gold if you have the luxuries of patience and persistence. All of my furniture has either come from there, or the dump.
Did you start getting furniture off Craigs List before or after that guy thought your advert was an invitation to anonymous gay sex?
Fuck alcohol and fuck addiction.
I've spent the last 5 days feeling like I was going to die if I didn't have a drink. But I am the same man who got over crippling depression through sheer willpower and spite. And with the way my brain works, cutting out drinking completely, that shit still controls you.
I've gone from the point where I was spending 1 paycheck a month on alcohol, to just the weekends, to just Friday, to today, where it was one of those days where you just have a drink or 2 to unwind after work, and I've had 4 and I would bareknuckle box Mike Tyson for drink number 5.
As someone going through his own version of withdrawals, physical activity is a great edge-taker-offer. My particular poison is long-distance shit. Mostly bicycle, but walking and jogging too. Anything that gets the blood pumping works though. If I wear myself out to the point I'm too exhausted to imagine diving into my particular itch, it makes it a little easier to face things.As someone who is presently sweating out the tail end of narcotics, I strongly endorse constant aggression as a healthy way to deal with the situation. I would like to add that the world is boring and easy and I have no idea how normal people live like this.
But give yourself a break man - It's ok to just not do something. If I told people I was still going to take a little morphine from time to time just to show it who was boss, they'd say I was fucking crazy.
As someone going through his own version of withdrawals, physical activity is a great edge-taker-offer. My particular poison is long-distance shit. Mostly bicycle, but walking and jogging too. Anything that gets the blood pumping works though. If I wear myself out to the point I'm too exhausted to imagine diving into my particular itch, it makes it a little easier to face things.
But yeah, the world without the fog is a real fuckin' bitch sometimes. It's easy to see why so many of us opt for the addiction. What a shit-show reality without a filter is.
Fuck alcohol and fuck addiction.
I've spent the last 5 days feeling like I was going to die if I didn't have a drink. But I am the same man who got over crippling depression through sheer willpower and spite. And with the way my brain works, cutting out drinking completely, that shit still controls you.
I've gone from the point where I was spending 1 paycheck a month on alcohol, to just the weekends, to just Friday, to today, where it was one of those days where you just have a drink or 2 to unwind after work, and I've had 4 and I would bareknuckle box Mike Tyson for drink number 5.
Been there and being there. To be honest, last time I went 24 hours without a drink was October.... 2020. I sure as hell would want to quit but I want to do it alone, no rehab, and that's pretty close to impossible.![]()
It's not impossible man, it's fucking nasty, but it's not impossible. All you do is cut down a little bit at a time. That's all. That's a kinda long term project, and it is both stressful and boring (the worst combination) but fundamentally you just drink/use the smallest amount you can get away with each day. And eventually you arrive at a day when that is zero. Or close enough.
The rules that I have generally used are that you try to go as long as humanly possible until you do the "first of the day", but you don't sweat a little taste at night so you can sleep. You want to be sweating it out when you're awake, because then you can fight it. And then just go nuts doing anything that'll make you physically tired.
I know. It's weird because when I'm at work I don't think about drinking at all and have no problem pulling 16h shifts but as soon as I clock out the first and only thing in my mind is beer. There's plenty of days when I'm in high spirits when I leave work and think "today's the day" but when I'm driving home, something snaps in my head and I get super anxious about the thought of not drinking and before I know it, I'm sitting at home 3 beers down. Even though I stay sober at work, at this point I'm seriously worried I get fucking seizures if I go one night without drinking.
Ah I get you man.
I guess the approach is just to try to stick to one beer. Which I know has to be tough. I've never done the booze thing, I only do the dope thing, and while it's not exactly great for you it doesn't quite have the same "loosens your inhibitions" aspect. But in principle, that's where it needs to start. Kinda proving to yourself that you're going to be ok on a little bit. Not zero. Just one. Then just half one.
Or, you know, get into valium to chill out after work
No, don't do that. I'm reliably informed that benzos are the worst addiction to break. Although now I think of it, I was told that back before meth was a big deal, so maybe not so much anymore.