Yeah, I'm working on it. Like I said, I've been in counseling for a few years now. There are a lot of reasons I feel terrible and unworthy. The simple fact that she is interested in me obviously indicates that I am not unworthy, and if emotional responses were rational in any way, that would be great. But...the paranoia persists, because it is not based in truth, but in irrational fear.
And for the record, I have most definitely been opening up to her. I've told her about all of my neuroses, and she is still there, so it seems like it doesn't bother her that much. She told me that she admires me for the strength of character it takes to fight through all that fear and anxiety, and still manage to make forward progress.
Anyway..I'm working on it. And thanks for the reply.